I'll always come back (just never leave)

i push you away but it's like magnets
it's just because we're too alike
if she wants you then so do i
& I've already had a lease on ur love
for 3 yrs now
it's just a matter of time
before we make it final

but that's the only thing
that keeps me away
the finality
i can't be tamed
or tied down for more then
a few months at a time
remember? you've tried

it's nothing you did
but it's everything i am
i imagine it'll be worse
when i get older &
can't stand the sight of
where i call home
more and more frequently

xo
--flawedxrose

don't say you love me

my hips are sore
but my heart is worse
i miss the late night calls
to make sure "you're still here"
you always were.
but i could never stay

it's not you, it's me
i love the idea of you
but your idea of me
isn't reality

too many missed calls
my guilt blooms just as frequently as my head aches
but nothing good will come of it
just crossed lines (minds) and hearts
that were never meant to be untangled
knots of love
i'll die wrapped in them

2:04am

the future is a whirlwind
but where will i land?
the flames burn me as i fan them
but it's ok, my skin's thicker then they think
dreams float to and fro
pick a card, any card
like a sideshow carnie
yelling his specials
but i'm no jack nor joker
just want to find the king to my queen
but aces keep falling into places
and the whole scenario keeps changing
the butterfly effect
one kiss, a wink, a stolen look
my heart lives for the beats
it may be the only thing that wins me