What kind of school do you go to and what grade?

i go to a small private school in Chicago & i'm graduating high school on May 28 :)

Have u ever wanted to ask me something?

What would your perfect day look like?

well, i'm not too picky. just being with someone i care about, whether that be friends or more. i love cruising around the city, so maybe that. having no agenda whatsoever & doing whatever feels right. staying out all night & watching the sunrise would have to be my favorite ending.

Have u ever wanted to ask me something?

something's will never change (except overnight)

i hate how things can be completely fine for long time
(or as fine as you later realize they were in retrospect)
and then one day everything is different
and you don't know what you're going to do now
from day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute
filling the days, hours, minutes with whatever you can
just to get your mind off of things
even if you know you're going to regret some of those things
in the not so distant future even

life is funny sometimes how people do that...

i should be a psychologist.
i analyze everything and everyone around me
and i really don't think they even realize it

I'll always come back (just never leave)

i push you away but it's like magnets
it's just because we're too alike
if she wants you then so do i
& I've already had a lease on ur love
for 3 yrs now
it's just a matter of time
before we make it final

but that's the only thing
that keeps me away
the finality
i can't be tamed
or tied down for more then
a few months at a time
remember? you've tried

it's nothing you did
but it's everything i am
i imagine it'll be worse
when i get older &
can't stand the sight of
where i call home
more and more frequently

xo
--flawedxrose

don't say you love me

my hips are sore
but my heart is worse
i miss the late night calls
to make sure "you're still here"
you always were.
but i could never stay

it's not you, it's me
i love the idea of you
but your idea of me
isn't reality

too many missed calls
my guilt blooms just as frequently as my head aches
but nothing good will come of it
just crossed lines (minds) and hearts
that were never meant to be untangled
knots of love
i'll die wrapped in them

2:04am

the future is a whirlwind
but where will i land?
the flames burn me as i fan them
but it's ok, my skin's thicker then they think
dreams float to and fro
pick a card, any card
like a sideshow carnie
yelling his specials
but i'm no jack nor joker
just want to find the king to my queen
but aces keep falling into places
and the whole scenario keeps changing
the butterfly effect
one kiss, a wink, a stolen look
my heart lives for the beats
it may be the only thing that wins me

streetlight nightlight

was supposed to do promo @ the Metro tonight but apparently the white
lies show was cancelled.
Pat should be on top of this shit. Majorly.
So here i am chilling on the street corner of Clark and Racine.
Conversing with the bums because why not?
People are looking at me as if I'm a streetwalker although I'm fully
clothed.
i wish i was good at being social.
This is one of those times where it would work perfectly & maybe even
get me a cup of hot cocoa.
But no, I'm pretty much the exact opposite of that.
So I'm freezing my ass off underneath the streetlamp.
Feeling a bit lonely but i do get to observe a bit.
Too bad my observing probably looks just as bad as my awkwardness.
i think I'll walk over to Uncommon Ground but not sure if they'll even
let me in :S
Sucky night.
Might write more later?...
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